sadness after spm

am i a stupid guy why should i hurt myself becoz of that person?
i m reli stupid coz i waste a lot of time and energy becoz of that person and i didn't get anything is this fair besides that that person also didn't bother me also no even a thank you i will be smart next time i won't be ppl's water fish but i get to know a lot of friends but onli abit unhappy lor! haiz y i m so bad luck after spm also will get this kind of sad thing y can't i be happy tell me why? No one really knows me!!! I think tat person also will not wish me whn i brithday coz last i wished her at 12.00a.m. and mines will be coming soon hope i will get a big surprise!