lion king

my favorite when i was young.. i miss those days. however this is life. look forward.

the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot to be something I'm not
I'm a fool out of love 'cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs and synchronize in time
It's a joke nobody knows, they've got a ticket to the show

Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show, just enjoy the show

I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, just enjoy the show
I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, just enjoy the show

YOU BELONG WITH ME




You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset.
She's going off about something that you said
'Cuz she dosent get your humor like I do...
I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she dosen't like
And she'll never know your story like I do'

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm in the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see, you
You belong with me

You belong with me
Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say your fine
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know
Baby...
You belong with me

Oh'
I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know your about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time
How could you not know
Baby you belong with me
You belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me

You belong with me...

I love this song so much...
You (dear beauty snowwhite c) belong with me =)

tired..

I am really tired recently. Can you just give me short break. All I wish to do is what i like. Don't force me to. When i say no. It really means no!!! PLEASE...

slept for 2 hours only.

It was a busy week. there are more coming in very soon. first of all on friday, after work my president called me said there's a meeting. I was like omg I thought the meeting has canceled. After that, I just found that it was just a wrong info. Then I rushed back and had a quick dinner and went for meeting. After meeting already late in the night. When i reached home I arranged on some stuff then only got to bed. On the next day went to work again. And again after work there's a call asking me to go repair computer in petaling jaya. Thus, after work i rushed to PJ and i finished everything at about 3sth then i went to my uncle's place to stay one night. I slept at about 4sth and woke up at 6sth to take bus back to cyber again. After reaching cyber, I had a quick bath and rush to work again. It was very very tiring day. After work we went for movie some more. I I am really tired of having this kind of life. I want to revert back to a normal life. Please.. I need a short break. I am not a robot.

never look at the back!

Me and two my of classmates were having dinner one day. After dinner, my "sista" suddenly said that I realize that you have said a lot of good things but in the past. Till then i just realized that I have been living in the past. Thanks sis for reminding me. I will wake up as soon as possible. =)

i missed it.

People always say shouldn't look at the back. However, I always miss myself in the past. I was a strong man if were to compare to know. I never think I should be as good as the past. At least as spiritual as the past. After falling please stand up. Don't think how pain it is. Just go forward and miracles will be awaiting us. Stay STRONG!!! KNOCKED OUT the "enemies"..

What is going on?

I have no idea what have i done. Really had some bad time recently. First of all, quarrel with mum. Then get unexpected terrible result. also being deducted mark for my tutorial. Worst my samsung omnia fail to start up after the firmware upgraded. I don't like this environment. seems like being controlled unwillingly. I hate staying in this environment. Hopefully everything will be fine soon. Last but not least, happy birthday to yueh ming.

happiest day

Previously I did a very big mistake and on the following day I came back to cyberjaya because I don't have the courage to face my mum. When i reached cyberjaya i really missed my mum so much. who knows she text-ed me and asked "when are you going to finish your business?" Actually before coming back to cyberjaya I told her that I am going to find some solutions on my tutorial. So she forgave me during the text-ing. So I decided to come back to bahau again on the second day. Though tiring i don't mind. In addition i need to get back cyberjaya on the next day also. when i reached Bahau my mum came and picked me up from the bus stop. When i got on the car. I kissed her and told her I love her so much. Then I saw tears swinging around her eyes. I was so happy that she forgave me. I told her I was sorry because I couldn't control myself on that day. On that day I was doing some editing on my friend's assignment and I got stuck on some parts. I was very pek cek on that time so i got impatient and replied in a very impatient way. Anyway really thank you mum.. I love you so much mum.. muacks..

I HATE MYSELF

While i was having my dinner.. my mum suddenly asked me a question "will you bring me into your house in future?" then i said i will then she asked me "what if your wife doesn't allow" then i started to stun. I hate people questioning about my future wife cause I don't even have a gf. Yet I have failed many times in relationship. So I just answered " look, i really cannot guarantee you what my wife will look like and i don't have a gf yet." I have no idea why i will speak out like tat. I HATE myself. I have never said something to cause her cry for quite some time. Why? can anyone tell me why? why will I be like that? I am not supposed to be. Though i really hope to have a gf and i don't want others to question me about my future gf. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrarrrrrrrrrrrrrrraskldjfl;kasdhfia['wejfgasfj;iupgaeo0[pl;kmjnhgeoa;koqwreakjbo

my complicating feeling!!!

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flow chat

Lover

LOVER

falling in love?

I have not been falling in love for quite some time.. During this period I feel great on that.. However recently I think I am about to fall in love.. I really scared to get hurt before a relationship starts.. Perhaps in this sense I really look like a girl.. But if having a girlfriend then will be a different case.. Because can share with her everything and do not need to keep on hiding the feeling.. ish.. I have no idea what I am saying.. Of course i wish to have a gf.. but at the same time I scared to be rejected as well.. Do we really need to go through no pain no gain?

Not buying mac book pro

I am currently taking media innovation and I am learning those CS4 softwares. That leads to problems occurring to my old laptop. I bought my laptop 3 years back and it did not have graphic card at all and the ram is not really sufficient enough to generate to software. Everytime it prompts out an error please close this software bla.. bla.. bla.. and the whole pc went lag.. As a result I would need to change a new one.. even the campus's computer is better than me.. I told my mum that I will need to change laptop.. The price would be slightly expensive coz i would like to buy a long run one.. I wanted to buy the mac book pro.. at frist i choose the second pack.. And my mum said ok.. just need to save some money.. then i feel guilty and I told my mum never I will go for the first Pack which is rm1k cheaper.. At first I thought I can buy it by installment. who knows the sales person said they will only accept instalment for hsbc credit card holder.. Actually my parent said may be able to come down pj to buy one for me.. who know my younger brother involve in an event and everything ruined up.. I was very disappointing.. Thus, I choose to go outting with society.. I told my mum that just let him be.. Previously my brother promised not to join, yet he still join.. I wanted to go out a relaxing place therefore I told my mum no need to come.. Besides, I told her I am not going to buy mac book pro these recent days.. I am going to campus to use the software.. Disappointing but I think that is the way it should be.. First of all, I shouldn't give them such a burden to buy that.. I am not qualified to as well.. I should save up my money and buy myself.. Hopefully after this, I won't have much shopping to go.. coz once go shopping i will spend at least rm50.. I guess my aim will be reaching soon.. More Part time jobs awaiting me.. Be strong Vincent.. Be independent Vincent.. Don't always depend on parent..

Finally ended up with tears.. wuwu

All these while I have been very very busy. I thought I have turned myself into a "man" instead of the past "fragile" man. It was raining and I was working next to tropicana city mall. The air-cond was very cold when my boss spoke to me, I replied him with my mouth shaking. I was not dare to ask him turning the air-cond down, because he was very angry for I couldn't solve the problem. Yet later on, I got another alternative way. He told me that he was not angry with me he was just got frustrated with the problems that he has been facing. Finally everything was being set up and I felt as though very stress. Later on, he got into a better mood. I was very scared that I couldn't solve the problem. After that, he brought me to ss2 to eat yong tau fu. There I saw Prince Cafe. It let me flash back the memory of first time meeting nicole kiew at midvalley. After dinner, they fetched me to the bus stop which is at Kelana Jaya. They are actually very kind. After an hour of shivering at the bus stop, the bus finally came. When I got into the bus, I suddenly recall that my mum called me before I went to work. She asked me whether or not I have enought of money. Then I told her not to worried I have enough to use. The next question that she asked was "will you feel suffered continue studying?" Then I replied ofcourse no. I like my course just that my laptop is outdated and perhaps should change. Guess what? she told me not to worried she will discuss with my dad. I was very touched. Honestly, I really feel guilty of taking money from them. She told me that she is very worried of me coz she scared I am not eating for I have reduced my weight for nearly 10kg. In the bus I kept on recalling what she had told me. And the scene of my dad appearing to me as well. There was once I really don't understand why my dad did this and that. But today I suddenly thought of last year's mooncake celebration day. I like mooncake a lot. every year i will be heaty during that season coz eat too much of mooncakes. However on last year, I was nearly not able to taste even a mooncake. At the last minute which was before my friend picked me up, my dad ran to the next door to buy few mooncakes for me. Though i told him not to do so because i was in a rush and didn't want to trouble anyone who knows he didn't care what i said just ran and got one for me. For all these while I have been doing things without my friends knowing and none of them asking or caring me. All these moments just my relatives and my family caring me. I have been suffering all these while for stress. who knows about it? my shoulder are very very heavy right now? unlike in the past i will show my stress, but now i will rather hide it till today, i cried. Recently I really don't have time to think of having a girlfriend. Unlike in the past, I was really eager to get one hopefully she can care and support me and in return i will care her more. Yet everything goes in the wrong direction which caused me getting hurt into deeper and deeper. Perhaps that makes me lacking of confident in order to get a new girlfriend. I would rather wait till her really comes. I really don't want to be affected during this time. I am clear that once i am being hurt everything will start from negative again. If YOU really love me, then keep loving me don't paused and play. It is really hurting. After few tears dropped in the bus, I told myself I will continue fighting for the stress and busy life-style though alone or with my friends. People always say cry is not the solution. That is right. But I am not solving my problem when i was crying. I was just got touched that I could get through the though route by myself and sometimes with my family. Hopefully in future my friends will be added in.

life changes..

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recently I am happy with myself, just able to be what I am. Unlike previously keep on pointing to myself. I am getting more and more brave recently. I brave to point out my opinion. However there is a but. but I feel that it's wrong to waste people's time. I really find that time is important. That makes me of changing my life. Besides, I found myself to be hardly trusting girls. I mean in terms of love. I really do feel that, love is a scary one. haha.. perhaps I haven't found my true love. Whenever i started to love a girl i will tell myself that not to step too much on her else i will repeat the history and keep on reminding myself not to fall in love. I hope till one day I will change my perspective. Today's work was very worth. Why would i say so? the reason is due to I have bought a lot a lot of things. At the beginning, I found a note of rm10 on the floor. How luckily i was. Later on, I went for a body check up. The advisor said everything to me is healthy and nothing goes wrong. Guess what? My weight has dropped for about 10kg since feburary. haha. so much first time drop so much. hehe. After lunch break, I was very free, then I went to find out the price for 1.5 l 7-up who knows it was really cheap it was rm1.20 only cheaper than 500ml which was rm1.5 haha.. then everyone was crazy for it. after that there is a promoter telling us that the buscuit was cheap as well the normal price was rm12 and the newest price was rm4 only.. so i bought 2 7-up and 6 buscuit and one dutch lady full cream milk. luck coming yeah.. haha i wonder when will my luck of love come?

update for updating

I have been so lazy for updating my blog. Life was great here. Recently I found myself to be more confident than before. Unfortunately, I found my life to be more and more hectic. more and more last min call for help and I will need to choose where to go due to too many opts. Any how my life in my campus is great. I didn't know a lot of friends but i know 1 or 2 good friends =). There were few friends came to me. They asked me for opinion, yet they don't listen to me. I am really tired. In order to solve a problem is try to think the most efficient way and the fastest way. Why do they need to turn one round wasting his or her time and might be wasting others time. It's so unfair right? Recently I got interested in creating webpages. But I have no idea on what content I should put. Designing part could be many. Well, I wish I could be paid for creating webapage =). I have thought of putting in me and my ex-girlfriend's experience. but does it sound interesting? or I shouldn't put on that? Is there any suggestion? Please comment.

First time drove to PJ alone.

I haven't been updating my blog for a very very long time. I was very busy recently, I had 3 jobs in one month. mon-fri as a data entry, night time - computer technician, weekend-promoter. However I did really enjoy myself for this kind of life style. After jobs ended, school started again. As for the first week, I was very free, so I went back to hometown. Who knows, when I reached back to my hometown, my phone rang and got informed that there will be a meeting being held on the next day. Later on, another call again, this time is the company who asked me to fix the computer on the next day again. Then I started to think how good if I can drive so that it will be much more convenient to me. Thus, I asked my mum if she allows me to do so. Suprisingly, she allow me. I was happy with worried. Haha because I haven't drove there alone. Ofcourse I got there safely and reached home safely. The suprising part was when I was on my way back. I was using touch n go. I went to the petrol kiosk in the half way of going back. I was worried of my touch n go card would drop so I kept into my pocket. Who knows after filling up the petrol, I found my touch n go card was gone. My friend started to be nervous. I was still very calm. haha, kept on thinking law of attraction will help me. Who knows when we were about to reach the toll I found my card in my pocket. I was so lucky, haha.. that proofs the power of "the secret".

Lucky Vincent will always go lucky =)

happy tiring day =)

I hurt my pointer finger when I was searching my key to unlock the door. Who knows I careless grabbed on a shaver. AND I got SHAVED on my pointer finger. haha.. As you can see there is a sign as though a chinese code. which is "wang" king. haha. Was it about to say that I am success? haha.. well I hope so. Early in the morning, I woke just because I need to print out and submit the assignment. My groupmates and me was searching everywhere in the campus for printing due to printer problems in every where. haha. We were in the campus since 9am till 12.30noon when I reached home I did some searching about networking, who knows time pass so fast. It reached 3pm where we were supposed to meet again to do the power point presentation. After creating one. I rushed to the bus stop because I was about to go PJ to help my boss to fix the networking. The place was around Tropicana City Mall, before that I didn't know where was it located. I was about to take bus to Kelana Jaya and from Kelana Jaya take bus to Tropicana City Mall. who knows there was a huge traffic jam and i missed the bus. Then I tried to think myself how to get there. After the bus passed through the kdu college I saw a sign board which can turn into Tropicana City, but there was no way for the bus to stop. When the bus stopped, I am already quite a distance from there already. I tried to figure out how to get there. I took 30min to reach there. Wow an exiciting one because I don't really know where does it locate before I went there. I reached there at about 7.30pm and the networking was a bit complicating due to the password stuff. I made it but the time was 1am. I was shocked, I was worried also so I text-ed my uncle who is staying nearby. Luckily, he replied my msg. After jobs are done, the boss offered me a supper, I was hungry at that time but I prefer sleeping so I rejected him. He insisted to fetch me home. Luckily he insisted to do so, else I will need to sleep at the road side. haha. Previously, I thought just help him as voluntary who knows he gave me RM50 I was really shocked. I asked would it be too much because I am not an expert. He said nono you should have that. I was really happy. haha. After he dropped me to my uncle's house I went to bed immediately, because I need to wake up at 5.30am on the second day to get back to Cyberjaya due to working in alamanda. On the next day when i got back to Cyberjaya I just noticed that I didn't have any meal on that day. haha but I was happy because I made full used of my time =)

a step forward

After working my uncle suddenly made up his mind to fetch me home. It's glad and he brought me for dinner. After dinner we went to a cafe nearby and have second dinner. He ordered a tiramisu. I like cakes a lot. I felt weird at first why suddenly order a cake. Normally he will order a tiramisu for me if there is any celebration. Haha. and I was on the right track. He said want to wish me good luck in the new course. Then I added. This is to celebrate the begining of success. There are two photos. The First one is the begining to success and the SECOND one is I am success and will be the same for future. The definition of success could be a wide one. As for my own definition is happiness is already a big success. I started with a more positive way. In the past I was rather a negative one. but I am new I am getting to a positive one =) Happiness is surrounding me everywhere and success is around too =)

Yeah can see that I am happy? lol.. It indicates that I am success as well.. haha.. My uncle gave me some business marketing question as well.. haha.. suprisingly some ideas came into my mind in a short while. When you believe it miracle will happen if you are grattitude =)

took leave but very busy.

I took leave on today, I thought I was about to meet the tutor today, who knows the tutor replied our mail a bit late. But it was really a very busy day for me. early in the morning i woke at 6.55am to give a morning call to my friend. haha.. I like morning call from friend though there was only a person gave me only. Then at about 8am I started my journey to Melaka with my uncle. We reached there at about 10am. We just had breakfast at his parent's house and after breakfast we came back to pj again but not just both of us. He brought his parents back to PJ. After reaching PJ I had one or two hours of break at his house then rush to ioi mall, Puchong again. I was there due to bringing my friend to Old Klang Road. WOW my timing was exactly right he was being asked to attend the training at 4pm and we reached at 4pm sharp and the training haven't started. At first I thought I need to wait for him till 8pm. Who knows I met my supervisor, he asked me to go to midvalley. I did what he said because I wanted to get a casing for my phone. I saw lots of casing for Iphone which was my previous phone.

Too bad I ended up with nothing but a happy trip indeed haha. I walked pass the vietnamese restaurant which I missed a lot. Hopefully the day will come again very soon. After about two hours of shopping I went back to Old Klang Road again. It's actually very near from Old Klang Road to Midvalley. It just took me 15min by bus. Can you imagine that if I were to drive there? LOL ofcourse more than 15min. The reason is due to finding parking is a time consuming. I guess you will really need to agree on that right? haha. When I reached back to Old Klang Road, It took me about 30min to wait for my friend. I found that, my timing is getting better and better. We went back after everything is done. On the way back Cyberjaya, we missed out few turn due to my careless, haha I guess I was too tired for that. I promise won't be that again IF I am conscious enough. haha. In a nutshell, it was a very tiring day for me but it's a very happy and worth day.

badminton

I went for badminton on Thursday. I did enjoy the game though i have hurt my hand. I have never been playing badminton since many many months ago. I guess about 3 to 4 months. As normal I can't use the racquet which I am not used to. I will hurt my hand. I should have brought my own racquet. I was like a guy who just came out from a jail. haha. funny right? I really enjoy it, I kept on playing and playing none stop though my legs are aching. I was running up and down, left and right, without caring anything else. My purpose of running is because I like running and not due to hitting the shuttle. haha. Of course I was able to hit that. haha. I found myself as a small kid in the past. As time goes by, running crazy is something hard to be done. Because most people might be thinking "is there something wrong on you" haha of course that's just my assumption. I wish I still have a chance to play "catch catch with my friends" but who is willing to be the one? On the next day of badminton, my hands and legs were aching. It was a bit difficult for me to walk around. hehe. Though my body is aching, I found that I could breath smoothly than before. Yeah, I guess all these while I couldn't breath smooth is due to the stress which was being created by my own. Thus, I will do something which i like and will ignore those which are not happy. I don't have the right to change their mind, BUT I have the right to pull myself out of the track. I am happy with what I am. I am grattitude with what I am having. Previously, I was very eager to have a girlfriend, as for now haha of course i wish to have one but not eager to have one. Just let it be. =)

a happy labour day. =)

after the motivation program, i tried to tell myself not to revert back again. Here comes the labour day (1/5). In the morning i woke up, was thinking today is a great day. who knows when i reached the bus stop, one bus didn't arrive. The bus should be there at 10.15am i was waiting there at 10.10am but the bus reached at 10.45am. I was a bit geram but try to control it. Then one of my friends came to me and told me there's a korean lecturer waiting the bus as well. Haha She's quite pretty actually, then i started to changed my angry mind to gratitude. Later on, when the bus arrived, i went on the bus to get a seat. LOL surprisingly, the pretty korean lecturer sat next to me though she didn't talk with me. When we reached the putrajaya sentral i was trying to look at the map see whether which bus would be faster. Another surprising part is suddenly she stood next to me and looked at the map as well. I was curious where she wanted to go. Then she asked me where was i about to go. Then i replied alamanda, of course i asked her the same. She told she's going to kl sentral. I told her that she could take the E1 bus. Then she told me she wants to get there by erl. Then i brought her to the erl part and helped her to bought the ticket. On the very short way, we had a bit of chit chat(secret) lol. After buying the ticket, I tried to contact my friend who is in the erl. I asked her to lead the lecturer. She was very grateful. I missed to get her number. I should have given her my num and tell her that "if u get lost, u can call me any time" haha of course that's a joke. I won't do that. haha. though on that day i was late for work but i was still very happy. haha. I told myself it's a lucky day for me. Later on during the lunch break, I went to the food court to eat. I ate a plate of nasi lemak with the "wallet egg"(i used to call it) and that cost me rm4. then i was shocked i told her the last time i ate was rm3.50 who knows she told me the total is rm4.50 for 2 plates and mine is rm2. perhaps the lecturer has given me the luck. lol. Too much of dreaming. haha

rm2 @ alamanda?

could you believe that i actually bought this @ rm2 at alamanda. i was really shocked when he told me it was rm2. hehe.. but the bad part is i can't get it any more on the other day i went there. These days are really tiring, as for normal days will be working at ikano for earth day carnival. The tiring part is not on the working part. It's actually on the rushing for bus session. Sometimes need to wait for the bus @ 6am and reach home at @ 12 midnight. Tiring but cannot do much thing as well. As for weekend, my sampling job was improved, though the price has risen up and the crowd was lesser. I have no idea why and how did it actually happen. as for last week was a funny case i sold 40 for both days, it was exactly the same. As for this week i sold 54 and 64. why lesser ppl but more sales? my luck coming back? hopefully =)

as time goes by

As time goes by many things are changing as well. From freedom to very busy. From sad to normal. From scared to brave. From nothing to something. I will appreciate each and every changes in this journey of life. Life will not be tough if you think it is not. Recently I live with a lonely life-style, sometimes I found it's boring without friends. After few period of time, I actually found that I actually gain something from there. I gain something by not losing. A very beginning, I am not losing my credit for sms-ing. Secondly, I won't feel hurt by whoever have treated me. Though they are still treating me cold, I have chosen to let go everything. I found that previously I put too much effort on the friendships yet end up by hurting myself. I went to ikano for earth day carnival today, I learnt a lot of things. Besides I found that I CAN. I still CAN. I solved each and every mission by my thoughts. Mostly worked smoothly. In the past I cannot climb high or jump too high, there was once I jumped 1.73m for my high jump event. I could actually cross over it, but when i jumped up I found I was too high and got no confident to cross it. The fact that I could actually cross it. I even crossed 1.70m with a lot of spaces. Today I climbed up a very tall ladder, to hang something up to the ceiling which was very tall. I found that I finally overcome this problem. I noticed something from there, which is I should believe in myself and my confident. Don't put high hope on something or someone. It will be not worth in return if get hurt by thinking some wastage. Last but not least, please do save our earth together. Our earth needs help. Support earth day on 22nd april.

another training

It's my roommate's birthday. First of all, happy birthday to him. haha 21 years old ad. Wish him all the best. We went to putrajaya to look at the view, but ended up went into the wrong place. haha. However, we were still able to look at the view IF we move the trees into the middle part. haha. It was not a very special one to him (i think) pity him. 21 years old is an important to everyone. I actually didn't really celebrate my birthday every year. Almost every year also got attached by the activities, then many people were like very busy and ignored me. It's hurt, but that's activity meant to be. I gained a lot and of course lost more. I remembered when I first started to busy in activities, I met my first love. I lost her as well, it's hurt. Everything changed. Her birthday fall in april as well. Not sure how's she going on. Then the other day, I went to another product training. This time is nesvita 3 in 1 oat drink. haha. Why both also oat one? funny. The training for this was a bit different from before. This time the speaker was abit fierce. She spoke quite loud. Scary. haha. Luckily she didn't comment me much about my role play. Welcome new life.

april fool

It was about to reach 1st april 2009 which is april fool 09. This year no one fool me. Should that consider a good one to myself? Well, I supposed it is not. I sent few messages to few friends and yet i got few replies only. I wish some of them to reply but they end up choosing to ignore. It was indeed a very sad day to me. However, does that mean that i should reconsider their friendship to me? It is not just only this time but also few times in the past. i am really fed up. I won't really get angry that easily. However, there is a but, i will get disappointed very easily. I can't force them to do what i wish. I guess i should just give up putting my care on them and THANKS a lot for the past. To whom who reply me, I would like to thank you all a lot. I really appreciate it. I told one of friends that, if one day my dream girl fool me on april fool. I would rather pretend to be fooled by her. erm.. but that day seems to be a long way to go.

first day working

I woke up early in the morning and be at the working place one hour earlier. When I reached there, I couldn't get the entrance because the staff entrance was at the side door. I couldn't find my product as well. So weird right? It took me more than an hour for searching and asking. Ended up with nothing. They said this is a new product they don't have the stock yet. I was shocked when i was being told so. Thus, my supervisor asked me to do sampling only. Surprisingly, those kids were very scary, kept on asking for sample. Ohya, i forgot to mention my product is oat quaker. I like the taste =). The time past quite fast. It finally ended. Suddenly, a promoter came and asked me where am i staying. I said cyberjaya cause studying in mmu. Then she told me there's another promoter studying there as well. So I met that guy. Then he offered me for a ride. How luckily i was. In the car, we chat a lot about being the real 'hero'. He was right. Most people who are 'hero' in schooling time will be terrible in their working time. Of course we can't say it's 100%. It was true. I got so many prizes from different stages, yet i am now getting nothing. Wake up Vincent! Don't let others to think that you are a 'hero' for schooling. Be a 'hero' in future!

thanks for the "good"

live every moment.
grab every opportunity.
have fun in everything you do.
friends you've met will be friends forever.
experience each and single incident with an open heart.

Today i went for a product training.
It was not as good as i thought.
However there was something impressed me.
First of all, the whole training was being delayed terribly.
Then I was not given any info at all, as they thought i was one of those experienced.
There were 2 newbies.
one of them is me.
the very beginning, I was asked to prepare the drink.
only 2 were chosen.
i was "lucky" to be chosen. i mean not a bad thing.(at least ppl still realize the existence of mine).
well, nothing special besides felt being "existed".
next, we were all divided into pair.
again i was in the first pair.
i was like huh? How's everything supposed to be?
Most of them have already known what to be done due to their experiences.
After my first "test" few of them said i was good.
They started to ask what product did i promote previously.
I answered this is my first time, and i have never done this before.
They got surprised they told me that they thought i have been working there quite some time just different product.
That really giving a great confident.
Ever since 2005 no one actually feedback to me so.
Many of them either newbie or experienced tried to memorize and they couldn't get it.
I actually didn't prepare anything at all yet i could handle it.
nice try for me.
hope every step in sooner would be better.

arrr my keyboard bitten by rat?

when i woke up in the morning, I shouted " oooh no my keyboard's gone." being destroyed by the rat. it's very pity right? so at this moment i won't be available to reply as convenient as before. So my advise to u all is never put a mouse on ur keyboard. I really never thought of this incident will happen. A msg to myself this is not a tragedy but a weird and funny. cheers

basic training

the basic training was actually a normal training. It was like a normal class, nothing special. There were quite a number of people who were just from secondary school. They were great. If were to ask me comment it, I would like to say nothing special. It's a good company i think and of course i wish it to be. There were few awards to be won. I wish i will be one of them. Through this training, i noticed it's really important to know english well. There were a person who couldn't speak well. It was really a tough one for her. However, that job was just to earn extra money. I wish i would be better soon so that can earn more. haha. my aim my goal. Recently, there is a friend of mine who suddenly disappear herself. I really don't like this feeling. When sometimes when bored only find me and i will reply as soon. When i just want to have a normal chat, yet she doesn't even reply. Should I just forget her?

a useless person?

Tomorrow will be an interview day. Need to get part time job already. During the last time i went back my hometown I found that I am much more useless than I thought. One thing that I am really happy about is my brothers, they are really much more matured and better than me. What a shameful being the eldest brother in the home yet the most useless. What causes me to be like that? Excuses? I used to telling myself that I can't let go the person who caused me to start this blog. However that should be an excuse. How am i supposed to get out of it? Stop giving excuse for it? It's easy by spoken but hard to be done. Why would I started to lose everything after that incident? A message to myself please say no to excuse and please say yes to success.

happy melaka trip

to him :
thanks brother for giving me such a nice memory trip. I feel much better. I will choose to be a better way. I really felt very happy during the whole trip. I really very long time didn't have this kind of feeling. I wish in future i will have more friends like you. haha.. don't angry later ya.. lol.. you too must take care =)

to her:
i miss you so much. thanks for understanding me. Situation told me that i am totally out of this. Under no circumstances will i hurt you, so i choose to remain as friend or better as good friend.

parkinson disease affected by genes (general knowledge)

Parkinson is a disease which will cause a human being unable to move due the problem in sending the signal from the organ to the brain. In general, Parkinson disease is being divided by two groups which are early-onset and late-onset. The late-onset will attack those people who are at the age of 50years old or older. On the other hand, the early-onset will be referring to the younger generation which is before 50 years old. Researchers have found out that genes are associated with Parkinson disease. The main three genes are GBA, SNCAIP, and UCHL1.

The official name for GBA is “glucosidase, beta; acid (includes glucosylceramidase).” The GBA functions as enzyme producer. It produces the enzyme of beta-glucocerebrosidase. This enzyme is active in lysosomes which are being used to break down the toxic substances, digest bacteria in the cell, and also recycle the worn-out cell components. Besides it also helps to break down glucocerebroside into a glucose and ceramide. However in growing evidence suggests that GBA mutation and Parkinson disease are associated. Researchers have found that people who have Gaucher disease and GBA carriers will have higher risk in getting Parkinson disease. In general, Parkinson disease occurs when the nerve cells in human being are getting lesser which will produce dopamine. Dopamine is a signal which is being transmitted from brain to the organs and vice versa. Researchers believe that GBA mutations may contribute in the faulty of breaking down the toxic substances in nerve cells by impairing the function of lysosomes. It may also enhace the formation of abnormal protein deposits. In that case, the toxic substances and protein deposits could kill the dopamine which is the nerve cells producers. If the nerve cells are insufficient enough, it will lead to difficulties in moving and balancing.

Another genes which have a link to Parkinson disease is SNCAIP genes. The general name for SNCAIP is “synuclein, alpha interacting protein (synphilin).” This gene functions as producing synphilin-1 protein. These proteins are usually located in specialized structures which are in presynaptic terminals at the tips of nerve cells. In nerve cells, synphilin-1 and synphilin-1A will interact with another protein which is alpha-synuclein. However there are not many Parkinson diseases which are caused by SNCAIP genes. For this mutation will lead to a change in one of the building blocks used to produce synphilin-1. Some studies believe that altered synphilin-1 proteins cluster together, which could disturb normal cell activities which is including the nerve cells. Synphilin-1 and alpha-synuclein are components a part of Lewy bodies. Lewy bodies in a region of brain called substantia nigra, which controls balancing and moving. If problems occur in Lewy bodies to a person, he or she will also suffer from Parkinson disease.

The third gene which associates with Parkinson disease is UCHL1. UCHL1 is generally known as “ubiquitin carboxyl-terminal esterase L1 (ubiquitin thiolesterase).” The UCHL1 is a gene which produces ubiquitin carboxyl-terminal esterase L1 enzyme. This enzyme can usually being found in nerve cells throughout the brain. It will help to degrade those unwanted proteins. The UCHL1 appears to reduce the risk of getting Parkinson disease especially in young adults. This will happen when there is a change in one of the blocks of acid amino which is used to produce UCHL1 enzyme. This will usually happen in Chinese and Japanese. However, it is lesser possibilities for European populations to get this problem. When the problem occurs it will reduce the ligase activity of the UCHL1 enzyme but has little effect on hydrolase activity. This will indirectly increase the risk of having Parkinson disease. There has been reported in two siblings with this disease. It was being explained that the mutation replaces the amino acid isoleucine with the amino acid methionine in UCHL1 enzyme. The mutation will decrease the hydrolase activity. It that way it may disrupt the ubiquitin-proteasome system. Instead of degrading, those unwanted proteins may accumulate to toxic levels that impair or kill nerve cells in the brain. It has been identified in only a single family.

In a nut shell, we can see that Parkinson disease which associated by UCHL1 genes take part in early-onset categories. The problem is due to the mutation of the genes are not very completed. If were to look at the first three problems we could clearly see that they affect more by protein extraction. However, most people who are having the age which is more than fifty which is in the late-onset category will have a higher possibility in getting this disease. From the three examples, we could see that genetic does not directly affect on the Parkinson disease. We can only see that the enzyme which produced by the genes affect more.

knowledge from:

http://ghr.nlm.nih.gov/condition=parkinsondisease

i miss you

i miss you..
i really miss you..
i miss you soooo much..
i miss those days we being together..
i hate those days without you..
so where's the vincent that used to be?
please come back to me..
I thought the hard time has past..
but it still floating around..
i can do nothing other than hoping..
and be more wise..
be stronger..

hard time passed?

the hard rock is broken?
well i just gone through many of the hard times.
i have no idea whether I am getting used to those or in a turning point which turn to another condition.
well, i hope everything (bad(S)) has already ended.
I wish to reconstruct everything.
trying not to look back.
let the past to be the past.
look on the future with hope.
I should appreciate with everything I am having.
though i am really angry to those who have gossiped and brought me down.
I will not think of taking any revenge.
I will not continue stepping into the trap as well.
I will not tell others how I was being gossiped and brought down.
I will not allow these to occur in my life.

is the gal behind me pretty?

is the gal behind me pretty? haha can see it?

choose the world

do you want to live like tat?




























or do you want to dominate the world?

why will hating occurs?

Hating.
how a thought is not goalED.
agree with that?
one can start hating because of:
love?
academic?
friendship?
sports?
games?
and so on.
why would that happen around us?
don't you think that hating is starting from a point?
i believe that point is a person's aim/goal.
once he/she is not able to reach for that.
poops, hating will occur.
why should we feel hating to someone or something?
is it mean that goal cannot be achieved means hating must occur?
well, be steady and firm.
don't let others mistake penalize ourself.
It's not worth at all.
sometimes should think of ourself explicitly.
is hating start from greed?
keep that answer in your mind. =)
a msg to all my friends and MYSELF as well.
my personal problem is on love and myself.
i hate thinking of love because when i am falling in love and it's like sometimes there's a hope and sometimes becomes nothing.
can i get rid of that?
i hate you because i love you too much.
can i just control myself of not loving you that much?

interest?

interest?
many people would ask what are u interested in?
well, i always ask myself this question as well.
however, i always end up with the same answer, that is not sure.
i like photography but could that be my interest?
well, just see how far i can go.
everyone must have an aim to strive.
however what is my aim? my goal?
i remembered i was an ambitious guy.
and where's the shadow of that?
though i hate myself of being so.
but that still benefits myself more.
unlike now, caring for others ignoring myself.
how suffering is this could be.
Please be responsible of yourself ( a note for myself)
Do what I am actually like and not following others just to fulfill them.
This is not a person should be because everyone is unique!!

dinner at sunway pyramid?

hm.. what to eat? for a vegetarian is hard to get food in sunway pyramid, agree right? we saw a Vietnamese restaurant, so we went in and try to have a look. At last i had chosen this, which named vegetarian. haha. taste = not bad.























as for drink i ordered this, at first i didn't know what is this. the name was very weird, it was written with taufu and Vietnamese bread. when it was served then i only get to know that Vietnamese bread is actually our "yau za guey"(cantonese). I like tat a lot.

vegetarian + X drink = full + expensive

haha my equation, luckily is full lar.. haha





























later on, we went to BR= batman and robbin?
haha no lar. ofcourse everyone knows it's baskin robbins. well i like ice-cream a lot. I wish very soon i will get a "her" and enjoy eating with her. haha. However, I think there is still need some time for me. As i know i am not that "geng" enough yet. haha just wish me luck =)

my thought on spina bifida.

However, till now there is still no real solution on this treatment. From what we have observed, the factors of getting spina bifida is lacking of folic acid. That makes sense that, a pregnancy woman should take more vitamins especially on folic acid. Folic acid contains vitamin B12 which can be found in eggs, vegetable, some fruits and yeast. Vitamin B12 will help to strengthen our neuron system and that overcome the problem of neuron problem in spina bifida. Besides, vitamin C can also be found in acid folic which functions as building up a strong immune system so that a person will not fall sick easily. Pregnant women are advised to have a check up on their spine by X-ray scanning before trying to give birth. The reason is because pregnant women who have this kind of problem will stand a higher chance in getting babies with spina bifida due to genetic issue. Besides, those embryos will use up some of their mother’s spine part in their growth process. That is the reason why a pregnancy woman should take more extra vitamin in order to get a healthier baby due to the sufficient supply of what the fetus needs. If a new born baby is infected by spina bifida, operation should be given to the baby before it is too late. Spina bifida will affect on the process of growth because if signals from the brain or cerebrum cannot be interpreted correctly then the whole body will encounter some faultiest in the growth. At the stage of new born baby, they will have rapid growth and it is highly important to ensure that the baby shouldn’t get affected at this stage. People state that “prevention is better than cure”. Thus, it is not just babies and pregnancy women should take care about this problem. People from other categories should also be aware and take action for it before it is getting too late. People who get to know they got infected by spina bifida in their older ages will suffered more.

ok in NBA?

ok?
they are nba player oniel and kobe
can't really remember the exact spelling of the players.
well that came to me that nothing is impossible.
oniel is a veteran player and his spirit is still there.
that's why i have been so admiring him for so many years.
well i don't have much comment on kobe.
good luck to both of them.
=)

who am i?

who am i?
me?
Vincent?
that's just a name for others to call me.
it is more a like an id which is given to all of us.
however recently i found that:
"to everyone/world i am no one
to the world i am the one"
I will always suffer on my confident.
and that woke me up.
I hope that's an effective one.
Previously i couldn't achieve anything which people are better than.
i could only achieve when i am the one.
that's a failure concept after all these years i have been a fool and idiot.
i realized it and hopefully ppl will give me some time to work it out with it.
because changing a habit is not that easy right?
wish me luck always.

a nine years old idol

You might think you're pretty hot stuff because you've figured out how to change your Facebook status from your iPhone, but you've got nothing on nine-year-old Lim Ding Wen.

This young prodigy from Singapore is fluent in six programming languages, according to a BBC report this week, and his newest creation, an iPhone drawing game called Doodle Kids, has racked up over 4,000 downloads in just two weeks. He wrote it for his younger sisters, who love to draw.

Doodle Kids, which lets players sketch with their fingers on the iPhone's screen and shake it, Etch-A-Sketch-style, to clear, has already racked up a healthy three-and-a-half star rating on the App Store. One reviewer commented: "Awesome app!...Amazing that something like this was made by a 9 year old".

it's very very geng of him i wish i were him able to own an iphone and able to write a program. it's not easy to be like him. so work hard.

a new updating again

hello.
after for a long time din update my blog
i am planning to do blogging again
recently lots of things happening around
hope everything will be fine again.